This blog was initially created to shed light on social anxiety disorder (SAD), a psychological disorder that I was diagnosed with in 8th grade. It then grew into something more because of my passion for fashion and budget friendly finds. However, I still kept my Motivation Monday page on the blog so that I can keep talking about what SAD is and what it is like to have it.
Having SAD means you live a life of constantly fearing judgement by others. Having anxiety, or even a panic attack, when you socialize or go out in public. Some people with SAD try their best to avoid social situations by staying inside and eventually becoming agoraphobic (fear of going outside). Clearly, this is very unhealthy. Humans need to socialize. They need the comfort of having others near them. If you have these symptoms, please talk to someone about it. Someone who loves you and won’t judge you. Although SAD isn’t nearly as common, anxiety itself is an extremely common thing and most people should somewhat understand what you are going through.
When I was diagnosed with SAD in 8th grade, it changed my life. I finally had a name to why I was anxious around people all the time. I finally had a reason why I was shy. And I was finally able to cope with it and learn how to prevent it from getting worse.
I dealt with my anxiety by forcing myself to go to social events. I got involved in church. I made more friends. I got into sports such as track and cross country. I refused to let my SAD control my life. Instead, I decided to make it a part of me. I accepted myself for who I was.
I used to question God. I asked Him why He made me this way. Why would He give me a fear of being around people if He wants us to be disciples and spread His word? If He does everything for a reason, then what was His reason behind making me the way I am? After reading The Purpose Driven Life (amazing book that I highly recommend), I came to the realization that God did in fact make me this way for a reason and it is up to me to figure out what I am supposed to do. I truly believe that God made me this way so that I can be more empathetic towards others who struggle with a psychological disorder. I have a soft spot in my heart for such people. I want to spread awareness via this blog and to reach out to others who are struggling.
My current dream job is to be a psychiatric technician. I get to have help out psychiatric patients on a daily basis. I’ll be able to listen to them and build relationships with them. And most importantly, I’ll be able to somewhat understand what they are going through. It’ll give me the patience and strength to work with such people.
If you struggle with a psychological disorder, I would love it if you reached out and talked to me. Whether it’s in the comments below or via email. Just remember that you aren’t alone and God created you the way you are for a reason. It is up to you to discover your gifts and utilize them in a way that is pleasing to the Lord. One of my gifts is empathy. And I have gained that gift through my social anxiety.